A few days bring much change

Its been a rollercoaster ride for me these past few days.

Some of you might ask why I did what I did, and its not something that I did because I WANTED to. There was just going to be too many problems ahead, and its not as practical as it sounds. It was not easy for me to make that decision, and was even harder to execute it. Post-incident is just as hard for me.

I just feel that if things are meant to be otherwise, there will be opportunities in future. If its meant to be, then there will be a day when it will be.

'Fragile' is what I feel right now.

And I guess only time will heal.

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As the weeks draw nearer to the end of the semester, there is a marked increase in workload. Everyday, everyweek, I have something to rush off to hand up.

I have to work on a report this weekend, then start studying for my finals so I'll roughly get the gist of what's happening in the subjects.

Sometimes I feel like giving up. Sometimes I don't think I'm strong enough to walk the whole way through.

But I have to do it.

I think about my parents and how their faces would gleam when they see good results.

I think about how I'd feel such a great sense of accomplishment if I do really well in my exams given that I'm going to start teaching myself what's been taught in the whole sem less than a month b4 the exams. And not just for 1 subject, but for 5 heavyweighted ones.

I think about how I can party back in Msia without feeling guilty. I think about the 1st class honours I might be on my way to achieving.

Yes, everything makes more sense when there's a goal to look forward too.

I just tremble at the fact that my exam's goin to start in less than a month and I have no clue about what's going on.

*sweats*